Christine Breese, D.D., Ph.D.
(excerpt from a humorous lecture
Aaahhh... The pursuit of
happiness. It is so elusive, yes? Here in America we even have the
right to pursue it. The pursuit of happiness isn't a right in every
country, you know. So consider yourself one of the privileged on
the planet, even if you don't have much money or material things.
You are still among the privileged in the world because you at least
have the opportunity to be in a moment such as this, reading and
Chasing bliss is a useful thing in the beginning of the spiritual
search. It is usually what entices the spiritual seeker to "go
on the path" in the first place. The possibility that happiness
can be found encourages the personality to look away from illusion.
If the personality is satisfied and happy in illusion, there is
no reason for it to look elsewhere for anything. This is why the
need to chase bliss can be useful in the beginning, for it alerts
you to the idea that there is "something else" in life.
Chasing bliss is what started the path for everyone, in some way
or another. Didn't you start your spiritual search because you were
disappointed with your life for some reason and wanted something
you didn't have? Let's be honest. There was not enough love, not
enough security, not enough money, not enough friends, not enough
power, not enough happiness, not enough something, right?
There is something astray, however, when the spiritual seeker focuses
too intently on the pursuit of happiness--the dreadful "chasing
bliss" trap. The pursuit of happiness isn't recognized as a
trap. This is where chasing bliss is not useful on the spiritual
path and serves rather as a distraction. What's worse is that you
actually never get the prize! Ah, this is the biggest kicker, the
biggest brain twister. And such a let down! Many a spiritual path
has been abandoned because of this terrible let down when the seeker
finally realizes there is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
This is a terrible moment (or it could be debated that it is a wonderful
moment) on the spiritual path. This is often called the dark night
of the soul. This is when the personality realizes it has lost the
chasing-bliss-game and can never win, no matter what it does. This
is when you realize that all strategies of the personality, all
the knowledge gathered, all the work you have done on yourself,
is still not going to save you from fear. It is not going to give
you 24/7 bliss or even simple human contentment.
This is the cusp of enlightenment. At this time on the spiritual
path, the search is almost over. All escape routes from fear have
been exhausted and there is no way out. This is the moment for the
breakthrough. This is the moment of surrender, of giving up. This
is when enlightenment is in your grasp. This is when the personality
gives up and stops trying to get anything.
If the spiritual seeker doesn't make it through this initial let-down
about how the spiritual path has betrayed the personality, the human
psychology might be seriously dam-aged until truth is once again
pondered. Disappointment in God, or bitterness about the fact that
the spiritual path never panned out, is a terrible "spiritual
poison" to live with.
Some people get stuck here, right on the cusp of enlightenment.
This is because the last step, surrender of the personality, is
not taken. This is truly the only step necessary after the initial
turn of attention away from the illusion of "my life,"
yet it is the hardest. Everything else, even on the spiritual path
up to this point, has been a strategy of the personality to get
what it wants. Surrender of all strategies is the end of the spiritual
path, the conclusion of the search. For all seekers, this is the
last and most difficult hurdle to cross no matter how long or short
a time has been spent strategizing to attain enlightenment. To let
go of what the personality wants, mainly happiness, is a big stretch,
a quantum leap, into the unknown.
Many techniques have been taught on improving the personality or
reality, like affirmations and visualizations. Many strategies for
enlightenment have been given, like sitting in the lotus position
for twenty years. These teachings assert that happiness will be
found when the personality is perfected, all social skills are attained,
all flaws are smoothed over, the physical body is detoxified and
functioning, and manifesting skills are useable. This is the dreadful
chasing-bliss-trap on the spiritual path that most seekers get caught
in it for an entire lifetime.
When this moment of surrender
and giving up is embraced, true enlightenment is possible. The seeker
then passes into the consciousness beyond illusion. If this moment
is surrendered to and the seeker drops into it, enlightenment is
finally realized and the personality viewpoint is surpassed.
It is not about building the personality or having the power to
manipulate physical reality. It is all about dismantling the illusion,
not building the illusion. Who you really are is already perfect
and at ease with all that is in existence. It is the illusion that
must be dismantled in order to reach perfection. This does not mean
perfection of the personality or situations in life. It is perfection
that is already here in you, the container for all that is happening.
This container is called conscious-ness. Everything else, every
experience from human bliss to human terror, is but a product of
Once you realize who you are you can see through the illusion as
if it is air, all done with mirrors and light. You can see your
life from God's viewpoint for you are that viewpoint. This perspective
is an amazing place to experience life from, for it is like being
in a lucid dream that is magically here in the middle of the vast
arena of eternal consciousness. Your eternal perspective of this
life is a place where God is looking at itself. If you realize that
you are this eternal awareness experiencing itself in various ways,
like having a lifetime on Earth, you are enlightened, which means
"to be in knowledge of."
This does not mean that
the personality colored Earth life is going to be full of human
bliss all the time. It does mean, however, that you are at ease
in the eternal self, which never dies and can never be harmed by
any experience, not even the ones the personality is having on earth.
You can live as this eternal self because you are not the personality.
You can live knowing the secret of life on earth: that it is all
just a thought in the mind of God. You are privy to the knowledge
that even the unpleasant experiences in life cannot harm you, that
you long outlive your personality with all its motives, drives,
accomplishments and strategies.
Living from this perspective takes away the fear that the personality
constantly lives in and is also trying to avoid. This is the place
of no fear, if it could even be called a place. How can there be
fear if harm and annihilation are impossible for eternal consciousness?
The fulfillment you seek on the spiritual path is within you. Your
true identity needs no fulfillment and has no need to chase after
bliss, a fleeting emotion at best. You are that which is already
whole. You are that which contains bliss, among other emotions,
each appearing and disappearing in the attention of consciousness.
You cannot get or attain that which is already in you. It is only
attention that shifts. The bliss did not go away from you. It is
Eternal self, which you are, just wants to dream and experience
itself. It doesn't care if all those dreams and experiences are
pleasant or unpleasant, for it knows what is behind the illusion:
God's consciousness dreaming. It also knows that it is dreaming
an illusion. You are that consciousness, formless and without change.
Be this in daily human life, and your human life will have a different
flavor. There is a reward for living life with eternal perspective,
even though the reward is not necessarily what the personality wanted
in the first place when it started the spiritual search. The reward
will not be 24/7 bliss. Nope, not going to get that. The reward
might not be perfection of the personality, or having everyone love
and adore you. It might not mean that you have financial wealth
and the ability to manipulate reality in your favor with metaphysical
mind powers. What it does mean is that your life will arrange itself
to reflect that you live as eternal consciousness, rather than the
What that reflection will be for you as an individual, you can only
know when you have dismantled the personality and realize who you
really are. It is a mystery until then, and it is a different picture
for everyone. What can be guaranteed, however, is that it will be
a better reflection than the personality can ever create with all
it's strategies, flaws, shortcomings, misinterpretations, mind tricks
and pitfalls. The personality chases bliss and avoids fear at all
costs, focused on getting fulfillment from the illusion. Only when
the personality strategies are dropped, only then will you find
the truth of who you are, independent of a personality on Earth.
Try walking through your daily life as eternal conscious-ness rather
than the human self. Pretend that you are having a lucid dream,
that you are actually formless consciousness sleeping somewhere
outside of this universe, dreaming. Play with this for just a few
moments per day if you find it difficult not to slip back into the
personality self. You might be on automatic programming for a while
until realizing yourself as eternal consciousness becomes a habit
and you no longer have to remember to hold attention this way. Override
the perspective you have as a human whenever you can, as you think
Looking at life as eternal self, rather than your human perspective,
is a good habit to develop. This is where joy and happiness have
been hiding, here in the eternal self. Look at whatever you are
experiencing from this new perspective and see if anything is different.
Even ordinary experiences can be used as vehicles for exercising
this eternal consciousness perspective. As you eat your dinner notice
what the tone of your experience is when you take a bite as a human.
Then notice the tone of your experience as your take a bite as eternal
being. Investigate this, just for curiosity's sake. You don't even
have to believe these words. You can still investigate, discover
for yourself and see if something is different.
You will slip back into the personality perspective, even after
you have discovered your true identity. You might as well assume
that you will slip back within a week, maybe a day or two, an hour
or even another few minutes from now. Don't worry about this. There
is no contest to see how long you constantly maintain your eternal
perspective. Now you know the secret of who you are, your true identity,
and you can awake again whenever you realize that you have fallen
back to sleep. You can return instantly to enlightenment, to your
true identity as dreaming eternal consciousness.
Human bliss will no longer be the goal. Human happiness, whatever
that means to you, will no longer be the elusive pot of goal at
the end of the rainbow. The chase for bliss will be abandoned. Human
emotions will remain passing moments, which continue to come and
go in your human life. Instead, you will find that which transcends
any human emotion. It is the bliss of knowing who you are, knowing
that you cannot be harmed, even if you lose your car, lose your
friends, your lover, lose your house or even your life. This is
where you will find the no-fear, peace and ease that you have been
looking for in your chase for bliss and the pursuit of human happiness.
Eternal self is already happy.
May you find the truth of who you are in this coming year of 2004.
This might be the first year of living life as your eternal self
rather than your human self. This is a radical invitation, and will
have powerful effects on your life. If you develop the habit to
live as eternal self which cannot be harmed by life on earth, your
life will be different by the end of the year, if not sooner. You
don't have to say one affirmation or energize one visualization!
Physical reality is an automatic reflection machine. It will respond
to your consciousness independently of your personality's strategies.
No mind tricks needed! Find out what your reflection looks like
in physical reality when you live your life as God's eternal consciousness
rather than the human personality. It will be a beautiful thing
indeed, and the chase for "something" will be over. Then
you will live in the eternal ease that transcends all versions of
happiness, including bliss. When you as a human experience bliss,
the true identity of yourself has surfaced. It is in the very nature
of your eternal self. Now you know where to find true bliss. It
is in giving up all strategies for attaining human bliss.
is the founder of University of Metaphysical Sciences, Wisdom Of The Heart Church, and Starlight Journal. She is an author,
lecturer and teacher in the field of metaphysics. She is also a
producer and director of film and audio projects.
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